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The Trip

February 10th, 2009 | No Comments | Posted in reflection

When was it that my current life hit me like a ton of bricks? When was my moment of “Ah-HA!!” When was my enlightened period? When was it that I realized what would make me live, what would enable me to die, what would let me keep moving? I think it was when I was found out that I loved getting up in the morning. To start a fresh day, the world as my oyster, inside it are pearls that only I can access. I think it was when one morning, I woke up and realized, “Wow. I’m in LOVE!” And then suddenly, all the pieces started falling together. Easily, fitfully, like they were always meant to be there.

Life is so simple these days. There is a tendency in my head that when life becomes simple, I stop thinking. I just move along because it’s so easy, so effortless. I just “be” and I just “know.” I just “am.” There isn’t a bone in my body that has to second guess who I am, there isn’t a muscle in my body that moves involuntarily without the rest of my body following. I just “be” whatever I am. I think that is when my blogging world takes the back seat. I think that is when I stop writing. As happy as I am, I stop thinking because there really isn’t anything to “think” about. When the mind stops moving because there isn’t anything to wonder about. It’s *that* easy to live these days. My mind has taken a trip, and it didn’t even need luggage.

She’s Won Me Over

February 10th, 2009 | No Comments | Posted in gratitude, received

There are so many things to be grateful for these days. I keep forgetting to update this site. Or, more likely, I don’t have as much time anymore to update this site. Lily is growing more and more everyday, and I find my days wrapped around her like white is wrapped around rice. I am so fascinated with this little creature that I helped create. Everything about her is a miracle. I am truly blessed.

The biggest thing I am grateful for these days is my family. My Lily Bean, my husband. Just … my family. I have the best family in the world. We fit like a square block fits into a square peg. It’s amazing. I am beyond happy and contented these days. Most of the time, I’m also exhausted beyond belief, and I hardly have any time to catch up on my social life. But regardless, I am so darn happy.

I feel myself changing. Evolving. Moving. I feel her pulling my heart towards her, everywhere she goes. I am so in love with my daughter. And she’ll never need promotional products to win me over.

Pseudo House Hunting

February 7th, 2009 | No Comments | Posted in headlines

It’s that time of year again, when I get all curious about real estate. I go searching through Craig’s List for local listings, and sometimes even international listings, such as Wilmington NC real estate. I like to browse, see how much places are going for and stuff. Sometimes I like to daydream about possibly buying one of these homes, of course. That’s the whole fun of it. House window shopping. I think HGTV got me hooked into this mess, badly!