Mind Mirror

Time to Love

One of the things I’m so grateful for still, that doesn’t seem to get old, is that I’m all completely done with paperwork at work. I was supposed to be caught up before July rolled around, but I actually got done on July 4… waay before Baby Lily Bean was born, so I have nothing to complain about. It’s so nice not having to worry about all those reports and summaries that come with every single case. I love it. My memory stick is completely full of all these cases, and they’re all closed. Closed out, woohoo!! I hate that nagging feeling that I didn’t do what I’m supposed to do for work. I guess my work ethic is better than I thought it was. Haha. So now that everything is done, I just have to concentrate on loving Bean and taking care of her. I can do that. Easily.

A Wonderful Little Girl

It’s been a while since I’ve created a “gratitude” post. I will do one now, since there are so many things to be grateful for right now. Most of them will have to do with our latest addition, Ms. Lily Bean herself. Bare with me. I am absolutely in love with this little creature we brought into this world, so it’s gonna be sappy and corny for quite a while.

- her beautiful face
- her five fingers on each hand and five toes on each foot
- her little mouse squeaks and squeals
- her loud, “listen to me!!!” yelps when she’s hungry or demanding
- the way she looks when she sleeps
- her big dark eyes
- her perfect little button nose
- her rosebud lips
- her :O facial expression
- her farts and torpedo poops — they’re SO funny!
- her cuddles
- Dave and the way he has fallen in love with his daughter
- the way Dave talks to her
- Dave’s support and overall generosity to help me heal and get better
- family
- everyone healthy and happy
- getting my xray done today — WOOHOO!!
- everyone so excited over Lily Bean’s birth
- her chubby cheeks — the Lu cheeks!

Ah so many things to be grateful for. Even though I haven’t had a decent night’s sleep in several weeks, this is completely worth it. She is such a precious little gem. The only thing that I have to complain about is that I can’t get back into my yoga routine for 6-8 weeks after the birth while I’m healing after the c-section. I miss yoga soo much, and not being able to exercise during and after the pregnancy is killing me. I miss being in tuned with my body that way. My tum is going down nicely, on its own, while my uterus is getting back to the shape it was before pregnancy (aka: small). I’m not one to use anything like Fenphedra diet pills, so exercising and eating right will be completely awesome. I can’t wait!

GonnaBe

I discovered a site that’s really neat… full of weird little talented stuff that kids do. It’s called Gonnabe.com. At Gonnabe.com, there are some really talented things to see. This particular one that I’ve linked is a little funny spoof on America’s favorite all-time classic Barbie doll. It’s not how you remember her, though, but it’s a helluva lot funnier, I’d say. It makes me want to check the site out, and I think you should do the same too. There are some pretty cool things to see there! It’s a good place to start if you’re a kid (or your kid) who wants to be in the entertainment business. Check out all the different “Be” entries there. Some of them are pretty cute and others are just plain hilarious! It’s pretty kid friendly too, and quite entertaining.

Real Estate Promises

There are several family members in our extended family system who are into real estate. We already have two real estate agents in our direct blood line (Dave’s brother and father), and possibly a third coming soon too. With all this experience, I know just how complex the real estate business is, and how much is involved in buying and selling a home. Even renting is a big deal. Real estate has gone up in this continent, with more people wanting to buy, sell, flip, or rent out. It’s amazing, really. I’ve been catching on to the lingo, the fad, the direction that real estate is going in our area. Even internationally. It’s so interesting to see what it takes to own a bit of land these days. It’s not as easy as it looks. Real estate is one of the biggest businesses out there, and it’s not hard to believe how much work is involved in just owning a little bit of dirt. It’s wonderful. I’m looking forward to being a home owner in a couple of years too. With Drodio, I know I can depend on them because of their reliability, their knowledge, and their respectability.

With Love

There is something so comforting about having the people you love around you, and knowing how much support you have in your life. I guess it’s what everyone strives for. The depressed who wants to know where to look in order to be just a little happier. The angry who wants to know how to be just a little calmer. I think life’s answers can be bought in a package called love. When there is abundant love in one’s life, it makes everything seem possible. It makes everything that much more vibrant. The last few months have shown me just how much people care about me. About us. About our family.

When you announce a pregnancy, you want the reaction that we’ve been getting: “WOW!! I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!” Such a simple reaction brings so much joy to my life… knowing people are happy that we are bringing a child into this world. That *we* are bringing a child into this world. Us. Knowing people have faith in us that we will be good parents, that we will be compassionate and loving and caring and all that good stuff that we all want parents of the world to be. Knowing people have every faith in us. It makes me less scared because all these people somehow “know” that I’m going to be a good mother. It makes me feel good. It makes me feel that hey, I can do it after all.

It’s such an overwhelming feeling, really… the thought of being responsible for another human person this way. The first few years are the most important, seeing as how this teeny tiny baby depends and relies on us 100% of each and everyday. Every second, sleeping and awake. The responsibility is so grand. I take it seriously. I realize what a compounding job this is. I realize it is not to be taken lightly. I realize how much work it is. I realize being a mother is an age-old profession that is often overlooked these days in the world of the hamster runners.

But with love, everything is possible. With love, that’s where it all starts. That’s how life is created. It is with love.

Summer Love

What a beautiful summer it is starting to be! For a while there, I was afraid B.C. was going to rain all through the summer, so I am forever grateful that we are seeing the sun shine finally. I love having the sun rays just shine through the windows, especially when I wake up everyday. It’s such a pleasant feeling — being warmed by the sun. It makes everything feel that much better. And when the nights are beautiful and warm too, with a cool but not cold breeze coming in through the windows… it’s just fantastic. Instead of having to wear my sticky pajamas, I can wear nice pretty hot lingerie (not that I *can* right now, but I *could*!). Right now, I’m entirely comfortable in just undies and a nightie dress top. I love it. I love it! I hope summer runs longer so we can take Bean outside more often when she’s born!

Cravings and Food Love

Okay, so during this pregnancy, I must a least make one post about the appreciation of food, right? Come on, it’s only natural. During the first trimester, I didn’t like food at all, and now during the third trimester, it’s as if everything I eat comes from Mt. Olympus itself. The nectar of the Gods, I tell you. Everything. Literally, everything tastes 10 times more wonderful. So here is my list of current cravings and food addictions.

- Kellogg’s Cornflakes with Cheerios and milk
- orange sherbert ice cream
- Spanish mangos
- big, juicy steak
- spam (I know, I know, but good lordy it’s soooo good right now with rice and mangos)
- root beer
- mint leaves
- spam sandwiches (it’s good, I swear!!)
- smoked ham slices
- miso soup

Those are things I can eat all day long. And Husband has been so good to me that I actually *do* eat them all day long. He goes out about a dozen times a day because I keep running out of one of those things on the list. It’s rather crazy. In between our computer times, and talking times, and cuddling with Tink, and reading through a Leptovox review, and watching cartoons, and stuff like that, he has to make these trips to the nearest grocery store (or two) just to get my cravings quenched. What a good husband. I *almost* compare his sorrow to 3rd trimester pregnancy pains.