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A State of Being

March 26th, 2007 | No Comments | Posted in being

Man oh man. I am booked to the max at work right now. I have so many things to do, I feel a little overwhelmed. The majority of my clients are low-profile, though there are a couple who are very crisis-focused. It keeps me on my toes, but it also tires me out tremendously. I wonder if I’m the only one who gets these crazy crazy cases, or if it is just pure “luck,” so to speak. I suppose it’s “luck” since the majority of my cases are not so crisis-oriented.

I think as the time goes on, I am more inclined to be my best, do my best, show my best. It is not that I am anxious to please, it is just that I am anxious to give my all. I don’t see the point in doing a half-assed job. It’s like living half-assedly, and I think that’s a waste of time and space. As long as I’m doing something I love, I’m going to do it whole-heartedly.

I am getting along well at work. Jen, our counseling assistant, calls me a “rockstar,” and I’m getting the feedback that everyone likes working with me. It feels good, to be good at what you do, and it feels even better to know that people recognize it, and appreciate it.


March 23rd, 2007 | No Comments | Posted in visualization

I am still visualizing The Lucky Foundation. I do not forget. He is still in my mind, my heart, my soul, and will always remain my greatest inspiration.

Lucky, you did not die in vein. You will always be remembered.

For Myself

March 21st, 2007 | No Comments | Posted in gratitude

I must not forget that in the midst of all this busy busy busy-ness, I am still wonderful, still good, still worthy. I am worthy of everything good in my life. And even the dilemmas or problems I have only prove some more how worthy and good I am. I am wonderful. I am clear. I am beautiful.

I am grateful for myself. :)

Monday Madness

March 18th, 2007 | No Comments | Posted in connections

1. Do you believe in reincarnation?
I believe in the reincarnation of spirits and souls recycling themselves into parts that make a new whole. A soul is a collection of energy, and as we all know in physics, energy cannot be created or destroyed. Therefore, souls must be recycled and reused. ;)
2. Do you own any anime figures?
Eh? Nope. I was only lame enough during my teenage years to collect “collectible cards” for Sailormoon. Spent ridiculous amounts of money buying them.

3. Are you one of the fanfic writers over at www.fanfiction.net?
Hell no.

4. Do you review stories which are posted in www.fanfiction.net?
No. I have absolutely no interest in it whatsoever.

5. Are you looking forward to seeing the third Spider-Man film?
Oh yes, very much so. Can’t wait!! It’s one of Dave’s favorite comics, too.

6. Are you looking forward to seeing the Fantastic Four sequel?
Oh yes, we’re both comic book / superhero geeks, and movies from such are always great (even when they’re not ;P).

7. Do you like “Deal or No Deal”?
I can’t bear to watch it.

8. Are you a television watcher?
Yes, when I’m bored. Unfortunately, during my unemployment weeks at the end of 2006, I’ve become addicted to several shows, such as Smallville, Lost, Desperate Housewives, and Heroes. :P
9. Do you write letters to people?
My sister and I have this on-going diary notebook where we write to each other back and forth in it.


March 8th, 2007 | No Comments | Posted in gratitude

Today, I am grateful for:

1. Meeting new, beautiful, wonderful people.
2. My fiance.
3. Tinkersmelly the kitty.
4. Cleaning the extra bedroom.
5. Healthy plants in our home.
6. A clean kitchen.
7. My engagement ring.
8. Animal rights.
9. Children.
10. Smiles.
11. Tomorrow being Friday. JOY!!

Lovely, Lovely Kitty

March 4th, 2007 | No Comments | Posted in connections

I am amazed sometimes at the connection I have with Tinkersmelly. I am amazed that she can read me like a book, even though we don’t speak the same language. She understands the inflections I make in my speech when I am whispering sweet nothings in her ear, telling her I love her and asking her how her day was spent. I am amazed that we can have such a strong, beautiful bond between the human and the cat.

What’s more, I am very amazed that she trusts me completely. Implicitly. Without question. I can hold her high up over a balcony, and she’d trust me not to let go. Without even flinching, she trusts me without a doubt in her mind. In her world, those who she loves will always love her back. In her world, they can’t disappoint her, they can’t betray her. It’s not in our blood to betray her.

And she’s right.