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And We Go

April 24th, 2010 | No Comments | Posted in reflection, visualization

Today, I was thrown off for a loop. I guess I should have seen it coming, since I sort of started it, but still, I didn’t realize I was dealing with such craziness. Didn’t really expect it. But, I suppose in the end, it is worth mentioning that whatever doesn’t kill us makes us stronger, and it doesn’t make me give up on people. I guess, the thing to say is… good riddance. It’s left me a little confused and stunned, as I haven’t met many people who can so blatantly ignore everything you say because they’re so defensive, and then they become offensive as a result. But, in the end, I’ve said my piece, and my peace, and I’m okay with that.

These things in life that throw us for a loop.. they come and they go, and we have to move on. In the end, what should be worrying me more is not the people who choose to push me aside, but the custom usb drives I want to buy. Yeah, exactly. That’s how little this stuff should mean to me.

Time For Myself

April 23rd, 2010 | No Comments | Posted in being, visualization

I haven’t shown gratitude or insight on this blog in a while, I feel. Lately, I feel like I’ve been floating because things seem to come naturally to me in life. I don’t have to think too much of what I have to do everyday. It’s routine. Mostly it concerns house stuff, as we’re still more or less settling into our new home. I’m trying to find some time for “me,” but it has been difficult because every waking extra time I have has been spent with Lily because I miss her when I’m not with her. So I try to make it up when she and I are awake together. But more and more, I am noticing that I need some essential “me” time as well. I’m not sure what this would consist of, but I think it should have something to do with exercise and most likely yoga. I’ve neglected my yoga routine ever since we’ve moved here. The busy-ness of life gets in the way, and before you know it, months have passed and your body hasn’t felt healthy in a while. I feel like sometimes, I stretch myself so much into my community and my family, there is not enough left of me for myself. And my mind and body ache to be given the same amount of attention that I give everyone else.

I’ve been trying to find some time to read more. Often, when I am not busy (like after Lily’s bedtime), I find myself aimlessly surfing the internet, mind-numbing my brain out for a bit because I’m so darn tired. Or, I find myself watching tv until I pass out on the couch from the pure exhaustion of my day catching up to me. Reading seems to be difficult, though still greatly enjoyable. I sneak it in more often than not on my lunch breaks during the week — going out by myself to eat in a restaurant just so I can have that half hour to hour of reading. Just on my own. I don’t miss anyone else’s company but myself. So, I try to find less time to work work work and think about silly things (like for example, the way our society is so targeted on best weight loss pills), and to find more time for myself.

In My Perfect World

February 22nd, 2010 | 3 Comments | Posted in visualization

I got this from my lovely Ronni-boo, and I thought it would look great as part of my gratitude blog here. I haven’t done a visualization in a long time, and what better place to start again than now?

List 20 things that would make your world perfect, and post them on your blog/facebook/whatever the cool kids are using these days.

In My Perfect World…

1. Both Dave and I would be able to stay home with our child(ren) without having to worry about finances.
2. I would already have my doctorate’s degree in psychology, along with the knowledge, without having to do any of the work. Ha!
3. We would already have moved into our brand new home, and I don’t need to worry about packing or unpacking!
4. We would all live in a world where social services wouldn’t be needed, therefore I’d be out of a job as a counsellor because everyone would be happy and healthy.
5. I could be a world famous photographer instead, or an artist, or something artsy fartsy.
6. All debt would be erased, for everyone, and every nation. We would live as one.
7. No one would ever go hungry.
8. No one would ever be abused or neglected.
9. Organized religion wouldn’t exist, and people would love God because God is love.
10. Politics is part of philanthropy, and not a career.
11. Nike shoes wouldn’t be made by Vietnamese orphans for 2 cents an hour and sold for $200 a pair.
12. Cancer would be cured and nothing else would take its place.
13. A university education would be free for all.
14. Education and philanthropy would be valued above riches and fame.
15. Actors and actresses are considered artists instead of idols.
16. I wouldn’t have the insecurities I have with friendships.
17. I’d be motivated to do yoga every single day.
18. Lily would grow up to be mentally, emotionally, and physically healthy. Everything else is just icing.
19. My mom and I would get along while conversing with each other for more than 5 minutes.
20. My dad would be happy. Always.

(What the heck are Cole Haan shoes and why should I care?)


February 11th, 2010 | No Comments | Posted in visualization

With our moving day coming so fast, I can’t help but look at every building and house we pass by now. Even metal buildings, of all things. It really makes you visualize all the different things you don’t see everyday, when you begin to see where you’re going. If that makes any sense at all. Sometimes I wonder what I’m missing in life simply because I’m not watching, or because I’m too involved in the things I am expecting to see, or looking for. Sometimes I wonder if I’m missing the things that I should be seeing but not expecting. Passing life by. I need to have my eyes more open. And not be so caught up with my path. I need to expand my path to include even the things that I am not expecting or hoping for. Hopefully to make myself more well-rounded, more open.

Decorating Bug

December 12th, 2009 | No Comments | Posted in visualization

We’ve been house hunting for only about a week, and I think we’ve already narrowed it down to a few that we really, really love. We’re emotive type of people, and we know what we like when we see it. So we’re going back for a couple of “second looks” to see if we still feel the same way before thinking about making an offer. One of the things we really want to do is decorate, including looking at new furniture and possibly even lighting fixtures to go with the new furniture. It’s a wonderful experience, being able to live in your own home. We’re so excited! We definitely need more furniture to make it feel like home. Moving into a bigger place is going to come in so handy!

For the Night

March 14th, 2009 | No Comments | Posted in visualization

Ah, finally it is only 9p and I don’t feel like I’m rushing to get things done around the house so I can have some bit of time to myself before I have to go to bed. I go to bed pretty early these days because little miss Lily Bean sometimes wakes up in the middle of the night for a binky emergency or a feeding or whatever-it-is that she needs. During the week, Dave gets up with her, but over the weekend, I have most of that responsibility, so I have to get lots of rest — as much as I can, in case she gets up and stays up.

I got the whole house cleaned up today. Vacuumed two rooms (the living room and Lily’s room, which are the two rooms in the house with the most traffic for Lily), and did around 3 loads of laundry. Cleaned the kitchen for the most part, and even re-arranged her furniture. I still have more to do, but it can’t all be done while she is sleeping because most of it I need to be in her room in order to complete it (like organize her closet space). So right now, I have a bit of time for myself. I don’t want to think about chores, such as whipping out our carpet steam cleaner to clean our floors, or cleaning the kitchen, or organizing the bedroom space, etc. I just want to maybe draw a little, write a little, read a little, and then hop into bed. That’s my visualization for the night.

The Vancouver Scoop

January 7th, 2009 | No Comments | Posted in visualization

Tomorrow, I’m taking my brother and his girlfriend to Vancouver, so they can see the sights there. It’s a cold, rainy week, where all the rain is washing all that snow away, so it will be a little awkward to go touristing around the neighborhood. But, they’re only in town for a week, and so far we haven’t done much of anything because of the weather and partly because we’re darn lazy. And a few other outlying reasons that I won’t get into.

I’m thinking of taking them to Gas Town, Chinatown, and around Stanley Park. If we have some time, maybe around the downtown area and Robson St. But, we may not have time, so we’ll plan it all out accordingly.