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No More Hunting

May 3rd, 2010 | No Comments | Posted in gratitude

And I’m not just talking about hunting for animals, or eating meat (yes, I am a vegetarian), but I specifically mean hunting for stability. No more house hunting, no more job hunting. We’re stable now!!! I sure don’t miss having to update my resumes and sending them out, looking and hoping for an agency that would suit me and that I would be suited for. It’s been over 6 weeks since I’ve started my new position, and I am soooo happy in it. I’m really proud of being part of something therapeutic and innovative. And I’m furthermore proud that they treat me well as an employee. I’ve been waiting for this moment since 2002, when I first got out of university! It’s a long time to be waiting for appreciation in your job field.

Silence

April 8th, 2010 | No Comments | Posted in gratitude

Everything is so lighted up, fanned up, turned on, and opened up that we sometimes forget the most peaceful sound is the sound of silence — silence from electronics. I often forget to turn off my laptop at night, just out of habit and out of tiredness when I’m in a hurry to just get to bed. But whenever I do manage to turn things off, I notice very distinctly the wonderful sounds of silence. The silence of the laptop turned off (it’s amazing how loud these computer fans are), the silence of the buzzing of the lights turned off, the silence of everything just TURNED OFF. It’s nice. I should do it more often.

Making Life

April 7th, 2010 | No Comments | Posted in gratitude, reflection

Some of my friends are getting pregnant with their second child. I can’t help but remember, when I hear about them talk about their pregnancies, what it was like to be pregnant. I sometimes get an itching for it. True, the little annoyances that come with being pregnant I can do without, such as taking prenatal vitamins everyday, and not forgetting them. But oh the joy of carrying a living, moving being inside my body — it felt like a little miracle in and of itself. I felt almost invincible, yet at the same time so vulnerable and fragile (especially as I got bigger and bigger and lost sight of my toes!). I miss it some days. I will look forward to when we decide to have another child. I will enjoy it as much as I enjoyed carrying Little Miss Lily. Making life is a wonderful feeling, if you’re up for it.

Newness of Motherhood

February 14th, 2010 | No Comments | Posted in being, gratitude, received

The other day, I was having such a blast while shopping with Lily (she loooves squeaking in her squeaky shoes down the aisle) that I forgot the cashier person couldn’t catch one of the products from the barcode scanner while we were checking out. I love taking my Lily out with me, even on small errands. It’s awesome because she makes everyday life so livable, so wonderful. Just having her near makes my whole day better, my whole minute better. It’s kind of funny because when Dave and I take her out, we often fight over who gets to carry her or hold her hand. Sometimes she has choices (”MOMMY HAND!!” or “DADDY HAND!!”), but most of the time, she lets whoever happens to have her take her. I just love being near her. This “newness” feeling of being a mother hasn’t rubbed off yet. I wonder if it ever will? I hope it never does.

Gratitude for Homeostasis

December 12th, 2009 | No Comments | Posted in gratitude

One of the things I am grateful for is my health. While it does come and go and sometimes things get in the way in terms of my overall, detailed health, I am glad to be alive and well. Between this time last year and now, I’ve pretty much gone back to my old weight (which I’ve come to accept.. I could probably use to be a little heavier, but oh well) without even having to use any type of slimming pill to do it. I appreciate my body being able to recognize its own homeostasis level and helping me get back to it when the time comes. I feel healthy, alive, and wonderful. I’m glad to be here.

Life With Her

May 15th, 2009 | No Comments | Posted in gratitude

There have been so many things to be grateful for, that I am beside myself on what to write about. As always, I am amazed at how fast our little baby girl is growing. Before we know it, she’ll be a whole year old. I remember the day we found out we were pregnant, and I remember the whole pregnancy as if it was just yesterday. And now my baby girl is already 10 months old. I am so grateful for her presence, her existence, her beauty, her charm, her entire being. I am so grateful to be a mother. It’s the best feeling in the world, to be filled with all this love bubbling inside me.

Sometimes I just watch her go go go and I think, “Wow, what did I do before her? What did we do before her?” I can’t believe we went almost 10 years, just the two of us, me and my husband, without our Lily in our lives. Wow. Now we can’t imagine life without her.

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Our Gift

March 8th, 2009 | 1 Comment | Posted in gratitude, received

I haven’t done a gratitude list in a long time, and it’s about time I do one, don’t you think? As part of this site’s policy, I want to recognize all the good things in my life, and visualize all the beautiful things to come. All positive energy, no negative energy. I want to keep it that way. Today’s general gratitude is for my loving husband.

You see, Dave and I have been best friends for approximately 12 years. We’ve been together for 10 of those years. We’ve been married for almost 2 of those years. It’s been a really awesome journey — hardly any fights or arguments (some disagreements, of course), and always respect and communication. Our “status” in our family have always been ongoing and transient, but what always remains consistent is our love for each other and our dedication to each other. We went from best friends to lovers to roommates to engaged couple to married couple to mommy and daddy. All in the span of 12 years. Now, I’m a working mommy and he’s a stay-at-home daddy. While he could have argued to apply for jobs in IT, he didn’t, because he wanted to stay home with our baby because I had to work. I totally appreciate and am grateful for this role he is so willing to play. He’s a great daddy to our Lily Bean, and I’m grateful that he is so wonderful with her, able to pick up the responsibility where many men fall short at. He willingly takes care of her, and willingly dedicates his whole days to her. I always knew I could trust him, but I didn’t realize the extent of my love for him and my trust in him until I saw him become a father to our baby girl. He’s been there since day one. He’s been loving, kind, present since day one. He’s been a loving, doting father since day one. Since we found out we were pregnant. He talked to the belly, he held her on the day she was born, he took care of her and woke up with her in the middle of the night when I couldn’t. I couldn’t have chosen a better father for my daughter. He is seriously our gift from the universe.