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The Trip

February 10th, 2009 | No Comments | Posted in reflection

When was it that my current life hit me like a ton of bricks? When was my moment of “Ah-HA!!” When was my enlightened period? When was it that I realized what would make me live, what would enable me to die, what would let me keep moving? I think it was when I was found out that I loved getting up in the morning. To start a fresh day, the world as my oyster, inside it are pearls that only I can access. I think it was when one morning, I woke up and realized, “Wow. I’m in LOVE!” And then suddenly, all the pieces started falling together. Easily, fitfully, like they were always meant to be there.

Life is so simple these days. There is a tendency in my head that when life becomes simple, I stop thinking. I just move along because it’s so easy, so effortless. I just “be” and I just “know.” I just “am.” There isn’t a bone in my body that has to second guess who I am, there isn’t a muscle in my body that moves involuntarily without the rest of my body following. I just “be” whatever I am. I think that is when my blogging world takes the back seat. I think that is when I stop writing. As happy as I am, I stop thinking because there really isn’t anything to “think” about. When the mind stops moving because there isn’t anything to wonder about. It’s *that* easy to live these days. My mind has taken a trip, and it didn’t even need luggage.

Suddenly I Turned Around

January 25th, 2009 | 1 Comment | Posted in reflection

I’m 28 years old now. 10 years ago, this time, I was starting my second quarter of university. Fresh out of high school, fresh out of my parents’ house. Into the dorms. Second quarter living and meeting with my then-best-friend and roommate, Jenn. Now, I’m 28.

Suddenly, I turned around, and I was moving up to Washington from California.

Suddenly, I turned around, and I was getting my Master’s degree.

Suddenly, I turned around, and I was engaged to my best friend.

Suddenly, I turned around, and I was already sending out wedding invitations.

Suddenly, I turned around, and I was married. Having just spent one of the happiest days of my life, marrying my true blue partner in crime, Dave.

Suddenly, I turned around, and I was enjoying being pregnant for the very first time.

Suddenly, I turned around, and I was a mother. A MOTHER!!! How and when did this happen?

Suddenly, I turned around, and I’m 28. 28 years old. What the heck happened?

It Must Be Done

January 11th, 2009 | No Comments | Posted in reflection

One of the things I am forever grateful for is my ability to reason with myself and to have insight (albeit sometimes it is slow in coming). When you can admit that you are somehow wrong in the past, you can begin to grow as a person, and be a better person for your future. I appreciate that sometimes I do crazy ass things that appear to come out of nowhere, but in the end, I believe I can come through as a stronger person. Sometimes, it takes admitting that you were an ass to become a good person. Sometimes, it takes acknowledging that you were the one in the wrong, and not the other way around, to become a better friend, a better mother, a better wife, a better sister, etc. I am okay with this. As hard as it is to acknowledge that I have faults (heh), it must be done.

The Changes

January 11th, 2009 | No Comments | Posted in reflection

Everything is going to go back to normal now, which is a good thing, but also a little sad. The holidays are over, the new year is here, Sisser is gone and so is Brudder. Their week-long, separate visits were good — I got to catch up with them. It’s odd to know that they are my “baby” siblings, yet they’re no longer “babies.” They’re grown up, and I can’t treat them like little kids anymore. My brother is 5 years younger than me, and my sister is 7 years younger than me. It’s amazing how as time goes, things change. Your setting changes, the people in your life changes. You change. Everything changes. Nothing is ever the same for long.

I am learning to appreciate the changes in my life. It is comforting to know, then, that when bad things happen, they don’t stay “bad” for long. Good things take their places, and we eventually all move right on along.

Patience and Time

January 5th, 2009 | No Comments | Posted in reflection

One of the things I need to work on is being more patient with myself. I have all of these goals and dreams, and I want them to happen RIGHT NOW. I have to remember to be patient because everything takes time. Time is money, and money is time. There are a lot of things to do, but worrying about doing them all at the same time doesn’t get them done. One thing at a time, and taking your pace is a good idea for everything. Getting term life insurance quotes, for example, takes time. Buying a car takes time. Going to school takes time. Finding a job takes time. Everything takes time. And being patient is a virtue, not a curse. I have to remember that.

Attacking the Economy

December 30th, 2008 | No Comments | Posted in headlines, reflection

During our economic downturn, it’s hard for small businesses to get a lead on things. While I am not a business owner myself, my parents and many of my aunts and uncles and other extended relatives are. It’s not encouraging and it makes me worry about their financial stability during this time of need in the U.S. While Canada’s economy isn’t as bad off as the U.S.’s, Canada is still affected. And besides, most of my relatives and family and friends are in the U.S., so I know they are affected as well — sometimes first hand.

My parents are talking about possibly needing another loan, perhaps one of those merchant accounts that we have been hearing about from so many different places. In order to keep their business afloat, they will have to make sure they have a solid, dependent, loyal clientele list — people who will come back and over and over again because they are loyal to my parents and because they have been doing it for years. They have to also give clients what they are asking for, and perhaps even more, in order to keep the new people coming back as well. During these times of financial stress, we need all the financial know-how to keep ourselves from going under. Sometimes that means getting more credit and getting another loan. Other times, it means thinking more creatively and knowing how to stay on top of such times of stress.

I know my parents are wise beyond their years when it comes to financial risk taking. I know they will be okay. I just hope everyone else affected by this economy will be as well.

The Big Meals

December 27th, 2008 | No Comments | Posted in reflection

One of my favorite things about the holidays is that we get to spend it with family. This year, it was touch and go — we almost missed both family dinners on Eve and the Day due to the heavy snowfall that was completely unexpected and unprepared for. Vancouver just doesn’t get that much of a dump! It’s nice to be able to see family, and to see all the kids opening their presents. It’s so awesome. Plus, I don’t have to cook two dinners in a row! Haha!

My sister joined us for both dinners this Christmas. It was sweet because she doesn’t really get to have a big, family, “white” dinner very often, since our family doesn’t celebrate any of the Americanized holidays like Thanksgiving and Christmas. She had more turkey and stuffing and bread in two days than she’s ever had before. It’s amazing she doesn’t need some sort of diet pill to wash it all away (like Leptorexin)! Just kidding — she’s as thin as a rail, like her big sister. Heh.

I am already looking forward to next Christmas.