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May 3rd, 2010 | No Comments | Posted in reflection

Last month, I got my car towed at the parking lot from my last job. It was the stupidest thing ever, because for months my coworkers and I have been parking on the side next to the building because our work parking lot was always full. The final week before I left the old job, my car got towed. Of course!!! I was not happy about this. I had to take some time off work and ask a coworker to drive me to the 24 hour towing lot down the street to pick up my car. And then I had to fork over the fine in order to get my car out of the impound lot. It was a headache, and I was not amused at all. Oh well, lesson learned (though I’m not sure what lesson this was… perhaps to be more sly in my illegal parking when my work place can’t provide enough spaces for their employees?).

And We Go

April 24th, 2010 | No Comments | Posted in reflection, visualization

Today, I was thrown off for a loop. I guess I should have seen it coming, since I sort of started it, but still, I didn’t realize I was dealing with such craziness. Didn’t really expect it. But, I suppose in the end, it is worth mentioning that whatever doesn’t kill us makes us stronger, and it doesn’t make me give up on people. I guess, the thing to say is… good riddance. It’s left me a little confused and stunned, as I haven’t met many people who can so blatantly ignore everything you say because they’re so defensive, and then they become offensive as a result. But, in the end, I’ve said my piece, and my peace, and I’m okay with that.

These things in life that throw us for a loop.. they come and they go, and we have to move on. In the end, what should be worrying me more is not the people who choose to push me aside, but the custom usb drives I want to buy. Yeah, exactly. That’s how little this stuff should mean to me.

Making Life

April 7th, 2010 | No Comments | Posted in gratitude, reflection

Some of my friends are getting pregnant with their second child. I can’t help but remember, when I hear about them talk about their pregnancies, what it was like to be pregnant. I sometimes get an itching for it. True, the little annoyances that come with being pregnant I can do without, such as taking prenatal vitamins everyday, and not forgetting them. But oh the joy of carrying a living, moving being inside my body — it felt like a little miracle in and of itself. I felt almost invincible, yet at the same time so vulnerable and fragile (especially as I got bigger and bigger and lost sight of my toes!). I miss it some days. I will look forward to when we decide to have another child. I will enjoy it as much as I enjoyed carrying Little Miss Lily. Making life is a wonderful feeling, if you’re up for it.

Beautiful Feeling

February 11th, 2010 | No Comments | Posted in reflection

All we can think about right now is: house, house, house, and everything to do with house, house house. We’re even looking at light (maybe Dolan lighting?). Dave wants to maybe change the chandelier in the dining room. I’m okay with them, but maybe we’ll end up them anyway.

We’ve made it. All this time, all this work, being together, working together, loving each other. Now buying a home together. We’ve made it, and we’re happy to be here. Security is a beautiful feeling.

Liberation and Responsibility

January 12th, 2010 | No Comments | Posted in reflection

There’s a part of growing up that is so hard to do. This part has everything to do with the responsibility that comes with growing up. Such things include getting a job, paying bills, buying a car, purchasing your first home, having life insurance, making a will, etc. The list goes on and on. When you’re a kid, you dream about growing up and having no one to answer to. Being free. Being your own boss. Except, you don’t realize, it hasn’t struck you yet maybe, that while you’re no longer your parents’ “employee,” you’re actually everyone else’s. Suddenly, you have more people to answer to. The bank. The job employer. The insurance agents. The real estate agents. The mortgage broker. More people to answer to.

Sometimes, growing up kinda sucks. Though, all those other things that come with it, the things you hoped for as a child, are sometimes what makes it worthwhile. You can go to bed any time you want (and suffer the consequences the next morning). You can eat whatever you want, whenever you want (and suffer the consequences of that as well). You can do whatever you want. Of course, you also have no one else to bail you out except yourself. Scary, but also somewhat liberating.

2009 Is Almost Gone

December 12th, 2009 | No Comments | Posted in reflection

I haven’t had a lot of time to reflect on the things that have happened this year. Lily is in her absolute busiest (well, as far as we know, anyway!), and we’re having a darn time catching up with her! Since June, we’ve managed to do several things: moved from having an infant to a toddler, going on vacation to Disneyland (not one of those orlando vacations, but to California!), have a toddler’s birthday party (several times over, actually!), and even made a few friends along the way. Now, we’re getting ready for the big Christmas season this year, and even getting ready to buy a home in the midst! It’s all so wonderful, so quick, and I’m so so so excited for us! 2010 will totally rock our socks!

Redefined Me Time

June 8th, 2009 | No Comments | Posted in reflection

I haven’t done anything creative in a looong time. From websites, to drawing, to crafty things. Nothing. All I’ve done is work, play with Lily, and clean the house. Boy oh boy. Heh. I haven’t even blogged. I remember a long time ago, when I was so excited about buying new custom rubber stamps for my craft projects, and how I would spend hours just playing with these things, making things up, creating handmade cards and photos and pictures. Playing with ribbons. Now, I don’t even know where those things are in the house! I need to make some “me time” soon. But oh, the “me time” has been indoctrinated by an adorable little daughter of mine.